+=-The Hidden Piano-=+

-[Wednesday, January 28, 2009]-

I feel like going for a short break. I need a break.
I dun think that I will be going to Japan for holiday trip during March.
What tell me that? Nobody tell me without telling me I will know that this year I won't be going holiday with my family.

Today is the second day of Chinese New Year.
This year I do not need to go pai nian just stay at home.
My aunt come to my house to pay a visit even we can't pai nian I still can have red packet.
After my aunt left, mum asked me and my sister to go to temple to pray.
So went to bugis temple there to pray. After praying, take bus 133 to go back home.

While waiting for bus, I tell my mum that I want to go holiday trip since I have the holiday mood. What she replied me was I'm such a cheerful person still think of going for holiday. The words she say make me feel very unhappy and I just got angry. I know I'm bad that I still think about going for holiday since my dad passed away. I know I'm bad. You think that I'm cheerful person you are totally wrong. I'm just covering myself she dun even know how much effort I putting it to myself to cover. When I sad who know? I always trying to be a very good daughter do you know how much effort I trying to put in? She doesn't know anything.

I look stronger and make people laugh I try to be talkative even I'm NOT!!!
Talking all the way when my family never talk. When they are moody, I make them be more lively. Can't you see I'm trying very hard. I wanted to take part time degree I never ask any $ from the family. I never even ask a single cents from you. Why Why WHY!!! You never understand wat your daughter really wants!

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;12:40 AM;

-[Tuesday, January 27, 2009]-

没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

oh i believe cause i believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因
oh i believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;12:40 AM;

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到
地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果如果
如果如果如果最后变路过
我们不能接受
错过错过
错过错过错过我们一定能过
不会一错再错

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太快了别怕失去我
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱没有如果

真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
快牵起我的手...

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;12:17 AM;

-[Sunday, January 25, 2009]-

Having a very bad mood this friday and that was why I reach workplace earlier but still consider late. I work 8.30am shift but I usually reach at 9am but this friday I reach at 8.45am. I didn't have a good sleep for days. Keep thinking a lot of things and memories of my dad death keep flashing in my mind. Haix... Until now I still can't face the fact. My smile, my laugh will cover my sadness. I keep trying very very hard to be a fillal daughter to my mum after he passed away. I can't be weak I need to be stronger like man. Whatever things heavy things my sis dun carry I carried. Repair lights gal dun do I do. I changing myself into other person.

Friends never see my true self. I had been covering my lonely, my sadness to a hiden place so no one can find no one will know. I am sorry if I throw my temper with anyone of you. I didn't mean to do it. I just feel unhappy, frustrated to myself. That all I can say.

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;12:45 PM;

-[Sunday, January 11, 2009]-

Met Ms Ong and Ken at orchard at 4pm yesterday. We went to cafe somewhere behind the takashimaya for a drink. Long time no see, we had some chatting about our current life and she asked me about something that I won't wan to talk about it anymore. Since she keep asking about it hopefully this is the last time I mention that. We almost have a 2hr talk until she say that I wanted to go for a shopping. I thought that she will join us for shopping in the end didn't. Phew~ Cos I feel awkward that having her to shop with me.So she went off for a gym at Taka.

Ken and I continued our shopping. Went to wisma to find a bag see nothing nice design for agnes b and calvin klein. He mention about the International Porter bag so went there and see and I got a bag. Usual Price is $266 after 30% discount was $188 =)

International Porter Sling Bag

the brand tag

Next shopping stop Esprit, looking for Jacket at Esprit found a few nice one but the cutting is too small and due to my shoulder too big didnt get any Jacket yet I got a tee with hoodies. Usual Price: $49.90 after 40% discount $29++. Got the discount is due to Ken's fren working at wheelock Esprit. Feel good with his accompany me for shopping he can help me choose and also be my nan yong. =)

Last stop meet Janis at Clake quay, when we saw each other we are like wow one big bag of items that we shopped for the day. One of Ken's fren join us for dinner at Ma Maison. It is a Japanese + western restaurant. It is a interesting place for a dinner. When food are served, the staff will give you a room key for later billing. Less talk and have the picture here.

Chicken Cutlet Set Meal (Ken and Wen Fen)

Salmon Steak (Mine) Portion so small =.=

Chicken Steak Garlic (Janis)

The Maison Table Key

Some picture taken at Ma Maison

Special effect picture take using Ken's retro camera flash + digital Camera

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;3:15 PM;

-[Saturday, January 3, 2009]-

Mendol drama 帅男偶像

STORY
阿朝、娜美、雏田是三个一心想当偶像明星的普通女孩。每次去接受面试都不合格。一次偶然，她们目击了一个可怕的罪行，开始被杀手追杀。帮助她们逃跑的是演艺界的有名的女社长，冴子。冴子答应她们可以进入演艺界，但是有一个条件，那就是隐藏她们作为女性的真相，作为偶像俊男而活跃...

And here the Music Video by no3b - Relax!

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;11:48 PM;