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-[Tuesday, April 21, 2009]-

10 April, I went to the circuit finally have the chance to go to circuit to learn new things. Quite fun to drive at circuit learns a few stations but can be bored also cause needs to queue up to try the station. Few more lessons to go before going to take the driving test on the 29 May and I doubt I will pass. Totally, have no confident with my driving skills. Sigh.

I dislike having this kind of feelings but can feel release during certain time. I going to start with other project on build DLL with shake. Maybe still not sure that this project will be assign to me or mono. Cause of that idiot blue at first assign to me then after that assign to mono. Looking at the code now, it is a big gosh for me. Really don’t understand how the list of class file link together. I didn’t see any much class method calling another class method. Got no ideas how the building of DLL implemented. If this project, will be assign to me it will be a big challenges for me. I doubt I can.

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;9:58 PM;

-[Thursday, April 9, 2009]-

Today, met Janis after work to go Chomp Chomp for dinner. It’s located at Serangoon Garden area. I didn’t know the place I going to is the place that I went there before with my dad when I was young. I remember that I went to a restaurant near the area for seafood. It’s my first time eating hawker center food with Janis. From what I read from the forum, the forum members mention that the stingray is recommended to try. So we ordered stingray, satay, oyster (I never eat that before through my 22 yrs), and sugarcane.

From now on, I will start to explore Singapore for nice food and nice places to go for. Free to tag my tagboard to recommend me for me for nice food and nice places to go in Singapore. Thanks. =)

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;11:05 PM;

-[Sunday, April 5, 2009]-

My mother asked me about the part time degree that I’m going to get into the intake for this year August. She asked me the total course fees for this degree and she said. Why is it so expensive to take this degree? Cause she asked my cousin to check for other degree course that I can take. Like SIM, and PSB. SIM did provide business IT and for PSB Academy is on IT Application. Both of the schools course fees are cheaper compare to MDIS and both schools do not need to go oversea for presentation and stuff like that. Now, my mum doesn’t want me to take MDIS and my cousin also mention that MDIS had a bad reputation that it is what my cousin heard from other. She wanted me to study either SIM or PSB Academy. That is the only choice I can choose.

But I having problem now, my mother don’t let me study MDIS now I don’t know how m I going to tell them… I so afraid they will get angry cause last minute I can’t make it to study with them. Sigh… Even if I don’t care about my mum and continue to study MDIS it is impossible. Without her helping of support of course fees for the 2nd payment onwards, I won’t be able to complete the course and worst come to worst I may even drop out studying due to money problem.Now I only left the choice for SIM or PSB, it’s not possible to take SIM their modules not totally into my interest. Now I only have PSB Academy, which heard is going to start on June and they still having intake for now. But the biggest problem I need to solve now is how am I going to tell them? I really don’t know how to speak out.

Cause of this problem, make me not able to have a good sleep yesterday and keep thinking about it. I having driving lesson today and got no mood to drive at all. Worst things is I almost bang into kerb or nearly to car. ARGH!!! How? I totally have no mood now.

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;2:41 PM;

-[Wednesday, April 1, 2009]-

I had been working for a year. Started joining the company on the 1 April 2008.Time had passed so fast and things had changed too. I'm no longer a full-time student studying and becoming a working adult working from 8.30am to 6pm every day which is really no life at all. Sometimes, I still need to do overtime and have no overtime pay. Lucky, I seldom do overtime reach work late yet go home at 6pm. Pro of me.

This morning on the way to work in the bus, I'm thinking about the past my first day at work in this company and after a few month later my dad passed away and I started to feel upset through out the journey to workplace. Me and my dad fate ended after I started to be a working adult for a few months. When that was the time I able to support myself and also give him allowance. He was gone... When I was young, he dote me a lot a lot...But after I enter school things had changed, he started to think that I'm stupid compare to my two elder sister. I did hate him before from primary school until I slowly get mature and my thinking change slowly. From his mouth he will say me stupid infront of me. But when he mention about his daugther to his friend I no longer a stupid one and he thinks I able capable.

Cause I did tried my best from a primary school EM3 student to a polytechnic student and always aim for high grade even my parent never expected me to get a high grades to them pass will do. My dad hope that his daughter are able to work in the government sector or banking sector. My sister didn't follow my dad wishes and either I follow. I just happen to be lucky that I enter government sector and happen to fulfil my dad hope. He also hope that his daughter go get a driving license. My sister don't want to learn and I was too late to fulfil his hope. No matter where he is now...he always in my mind someone who I can't forget.

I will miss you always~~~

Sigh to myself...

For:
- Not able to treat everyone equally
- Not able to focus on everyone
- Not able to multiple on a grp of frens
- Not able to.....I dunno?!?!?!

Learn:
- treat everyone equally
- to ask everyone
- to use to it to a grp of fren
- wat else I need to learn?!?!?!?!

-..I'm Just A Loner..- Callbacks
['-Bee-'] ;10:36 PM;